have you been through as much sufferings as me??
last nite i went to the altar and the moment i knelt down, i prayed O GOD, I WANT OUT!!!
today min told me that i am a girl that is going through a lot of sufferings except the diff between paul and i is that paul is grateful for his sufferings while i HATE IT WITH A MAJOR H ... my immediate retort is OF COURSE - HAVE YOU BEEN THROUGH AS MUCH SUFFERINGS AS I HAVE!!!
last year, a prophet came to aon and his prayer was - you are a girl who have been through a lot of suffering and xxxxx and a week thereafter, I GOT DENGUE ... last sat, someone else prayed that - you are a girl who have been through a lot of suffering xxx and grrr i so feel like asking her to shut up !!! no, i am someone who IS NOT LIKE PAUL FROM THE BIBLE! I HATE SUFFERING AND PAIN ... i think the only reason God allows me to go through it is simply to break me so that i can be His pure and spotless bride - BUT I STILL DONT ENJOY IT AND I DONT APPRECIATE IT ... I THINK ITS NOT RIGHT AND WHEN I WAS AT THE ALTAR YESTESDAY, I WANTED TO RUN AWAY!
yup, Hedi Baker called for people who are reaching out to the people who work with the prostitutes and drug addicts (sigh can it be any more obvious) and so i went to the altar ... yet the moment i knelt down, i told the Lord I WANT OUT!!!!! i so dislike what i am going through and i think i made a mistake - He gave me ecc chapter 5 - sigh ... yup, someone came over to pray for me and she put her hand over my head, my ears, whatever for a long, long time and after the long long time said - JESUS GET HER!!!!
Lord, i confess i am so tired, afraid and weary... unless You come and show me Your eyes of love ... sigh!!!!! so whoever you are reading this blog, if you feel the Lord ask you to pray for aon or me, pray that I WILL SEE THE FACE OF JESUS - THAT'S HIS PROMISE TO ME THROUGH SOMEONE WHO PRAYED FOR ME AT THE ALTAR AND A PROMISE GOD MADE TO ME BEFORE I CAME TO GEYLANG ... yet for now, i am pouting and i am saying to you God, SHOW ME YOUR FACE AND TAKE ME TO THE THRONEROOM or ... sigh !!! thank God for GRACE, GRACE, GRACE!
today min told me that i am a girl that is going through a lot of sufferings except the diff between paul and i is that paul is grateful for his sufferings while i HATE IT WITH A MAJOR H ... my immediate retort is OF COURSE - HAVE YOU BEEN THROUGH AS MUCH SUFFERINGS AS I HAVE!!!
last year, a prophet came to aon and his prayer was - you are a girl who have been through a lot of suffering and xxxxx and a week thereafter, I GOT DENGUE ... last sat, someone else prayed that - you are a girl who have been through a lot of suffering xxx and grrr i so feel like asking her to shut up !!! no, i am someone who IS NOT LIKE PAUL FROM THE BIBLE! I HATE SUFFERING AND PAIN ... i think the only reason God allows me to go through it is simply to break me so that i can be His pure and spotless bride - BUT I STILL DONT ENJOY IT AND I DONT APPRECIATE IT ... I THINK ITS NOT RIGHT AND WHEN I WAS AT THE ALTAR YESTESDAY, I WANTED TO RUN AWAY!
yup, Hedi Baker called for people who are reaching out to the people who work with the prostitutes and drug addicts (sigh can it be any more obvious) and so i went to the altar ... yet the moment i knelt down, i told the Lord I WANT OUT!!!!! i so dislike what i am going through and i think i made a mistake - He gave me ecc chapter 5 - sigh ... yup, someone came over to pray for me and she put her hand over my head, my ears, whatever for a long, long time and after the long long time said - JESUS GET HER!!!!
Lord, i confess i am so tired, afraid and weary... unless You come and show me Your eyes of love ... sigh!!!!! so whoever you are reading this blog, if you feel the Lord ask you to pray for aon or me, pray that I WILL SEE THE FACE OF JESUS - THAT'S HIS PROMISE TO ME THROUGH SOMEONE WHO PRAYED FOR ME AT THE ALTAR AND A PROMISE GOD MADE TO ME BEFORE I CAME TO GEYLANG ... yet for now, i am pouting and i am saying to you God, SHOW ME YOUR FACE AND TAKE ME TO THE THRONEROOM or ... sigh !!! thank God for GRACE, GRACE, GRACE!
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