I AM MAD AT YOU JESUS

my teachings tell me that as a good christian i cannot be mad at God ... how dare I ... but i am mad at God and i so am frustrated ... so i might as well be honest and say - God, i am mad, weary and I darent trust You cos You promise me the world yet I STILL DONT SEE IT COME TO PASS!!!

so for me to carry on this journey, its simpe!!!!! show me your eyes of love that i will know what love is abt and give me the strength to carry on ... i really desire to love You with my whole being cos that's what I was created for but ... it sure is tough You know ... but i am willing to be made willing ... if only i can see Your face and to know Your heart, i sure think it will be a lot easier ... so can You please stop playing hard to get ... it sure is tough ... it sure is frustrating ... yup, You tell me to go into the streets to find You so ... sigh, hey shirley lee hoon chai, would you co operate with the Creator - perhaps then your journey would be much easier ... Lord sigh!!!