Sunday, May 28, 2006

why goshen

hey lord, its strange how you told anson of hi pt abt goshen through the korean sisters ... and then you told me that singapore will be a goshen nation through christopher cole and mike bickle's teaching on end times ... yet lord, if i had my way, i would prefer to call this place HIS PRECIOUS FEET :) yea lord, its only a name and servanthood, unity and love matters more ... hmmm that's why i'm emoting to you only jesus and not to others cos truly its only a name and ultimately, the name will change when you want to rename its destiny ... so your will be done :0

Names ...

hey lord, this is your favourite one asking you - what should i call this restaurant? are you telling me that the baby's name is according to my desire ... oh well jesus, my desire for this place is that everyone that goes in will find a place at your precious feet ...at the foot of the cross where mercy and grace is poured into our lives ... at your feet, where tenderness and love is poured into our hearts ... at your feet, where acceptance, humility and joy kiss us ... passionately!

does it really matter that i know the name now... especially that the restaurant is still in your womb... does it really matter since its only a name ... i guess it doesnt matter to me whether i call it goshen, canaan, HIS PRECIOUS FEET, throneroom, the king's chambers since its only a name and i am only the dreamer ... yet jesus, i know it matters to you cos you ordained it even before it was in my dreams ... so lord, what should i call this baby ... should i call it after janica's son (cant even remember his name- yikes) ... grrr

yet lord, what i am looking for is not merely its name but your heart for it. show me your heart, speak your mind to me... i really desire to know your emotions, yr thots, your heartbeat for this precious baby... so what are you thinking, what are you feeling ... will you please share your life with me abt this baby ... yes lord, many see this merely as a project ... yet, to me, this is something precious cos you are showing me who you are through its birth

hey lord, you asking me again what i hope to see from this birth ... well, i recall the dream where you said that a generation of zealous and ardent believers will be birthed ... yes, i hope to see a company of radical, sold out believers whose hearts have only you... a company of desperate lovers worshipping you day and nite, spreading your love like wildfire... yes lord, i so desire, a place where marys can find a place, AT YOUR PRECIOUS FEET ... a place where everyone will appreciate what a beautiful god you truly are ... a place where we can loudly, unashamedly declare that we truly love you cos you have captivated our hearts. yea lord, a place where there's complete freedom!